Showing posts with label Mystery. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Mystery. Show all posts

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

The Transfiguration (Mk 9 : 2 - 10)

One fine day, my 2 year old nephew looked to the altar & started saying "strawberry". We were puzzled by what he has just uttered. Where on earth would you find a strawberry at the altar?!! My sis-in-law and I stared blankly at each other. But on closer look, this picture (on your left) does show some resemblance of a strawberry from afar. Yes, it is none other than the sacred heart of Jesus!

This little funny incident indeed taught me a thing or two about contemplation. Contemplation invites us to look beyond the physical or what we know, and enter into the presence of the divine. As a child, many things appear to us as strawberries - our image of God, our understanding of Him, our prayer, the Mass etc. And here, I must admit that I'm still very much like a child when it comes to faith. Every time I think I know enough about God, I'm once again challenged with regards to our relationship & roles. It is not knowing about Him but knowing Him in that intimate & personal level which He constantly invites.

In some way, taking care of little children has opened my eyes about the need for child-like, simple faith. Silly as it may sound, but once a child learns a new thing, they relate everything in that context. In this instance, how could the Sacred Heart look like a strawberry? But imagine the potential of relating to the world, if I could but grasp the love & beauty of God in each person. What will the world become? How would I behave, if I am able to relate in this child-like simplicity? Will this world indeed become the reign of the kingdom that Jesus was here to preach about? For He says time and time again : the kingdom of God is at hand => so near & yet so far. All I need is to let go of all my "think I know everything" mature faith and to embrace the faith of a little child.

Today's Gospel (Mar 8) shows us a glimpse of the power of prayer & contemplation. The transfiguration is not an easy topic to apply in our daily living. I borrow the concept from Fr. Raniero Cantalamessa in his book, "The Mystery of the Transfiguration". In this book, he mention about the power of contemplation that transforms Jesus from within (rather than without). Contemplative prayer, reflection, allows us to search within ourselves so that we may come to know God as He sees us. What follows is a deep sense of feeling loved, secured which empowers us to look & react at the world in a different light.


"In Louisville, at the corner of Fourth and Walnut, in the center of the shopping district, I was suddenly overwhelmed with the realization that I loved all those people, that they were mine and I theirs, that we could not be alien to one another even though we were total strangers. It was like waking from a dream of separateness, of spurious self-isolation in a special world, the world of renunciation and supposed holiness...This sense of liberation from an illusory difference was such a relief and such a joy to me that I almost laughed out loud. And I suppose my happiness could have taken form in the words: “Thank God, thank God that I am like other men, that I am only a man among others.”...I have the immense joy of being man, a member of a race in which God Himself became incarnate. And if only everybody could realize this! But it cannot be explained. There is no way of telling people that they are all walking around shining like the sun...Then it was as if I suddenly saw the secret beauty of their hearts, the depths of their hearts where neither sin nor desire nor self-knowledge can reach, the core of their reality, the person that each one is in God’s eyes. If only they could all see themselves as they really are. If only we could see each other that way all the time. There would be no more war, no more hatred, no more cruelty, no more greed…I suppose the big problem would be that we would fall down and worship each other. But this cannot be seen, only believed and “understood” by a peculiar gift."




~ Thomas Merton, Conjectures of A Guilty Bystander


Sunday, May 25, 2008

Living with Mystery

I was with a group of friends some months back, taking on yet another personality test to discover about myself (as if i haven't already know who i am!). Strangely, among the 5 different personality tests that i have taken in my lifetime, none has yet to capture my personality with 100% accuracy. But yes, they are good approximates - but they are at best, approximates. i wouldn't totally agree with the results. It is funny how these tests intrigued us as we try to discover something new about ourselves (oh please, who are you trying to kid!) and about others.

I was reminded by Sr. Christina that these tests could never be 100% accurate, as even we, can't say that we TOTALLY understand ourselves. And if we can never fully understand ourselves, how then can we say we totally understand God? At that moment, that truth suddenly hit me. But you see, as human beings, we are not brought up to live with "i dunnos". As little children, we were raised to question, to challenge and to find answers. Which is why even till today (as if our beings aren't complicated enough), we are still seeking to find answers if there are intelligent beings surviving there in outer space.

So, for once, i have learnt to be comfortable to say "i dunno". i need not try to fill in the great ocean into a small sand hole that i dig, by the beach (there is no way i will ever contain it!). I need to be honest to myself & admit that mystery is here to stay. That i am not only human being, but also divine being. I can't fully understand myself, just as i can't fully comprehend God. There's a little divine spark within each of us that allows mystery, and our Indescribable God to dwell within. How and when it happen? - "i dunno".

And by this equation & logic, the only surest way to know God, is when i fully know & accept myself for who i am. For then, we will come to accept this awesome truth in John 10 that "...As the Father knows me and I know the Father...(v10)", "I and the Father are one (v30)", "....that you may know and understand that the Father is in me and I am in the Father(v38)".

"For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, says the LORD.
For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways

and my thoughts than your thoughts"
~ Isaiah 55:8-9